I went to the community center to exercise a few days ago and as I was leaving I passed a woman in the hallway with her kids. I asked her how her how she was doing, and her answer suprised me.
"Blessed" she said, followed with a genuine smile.
I stopped for a moment and had to digest her response.
I smiled and thought for a moment, then asked her if I was correct in assuming that she is a Christ follower. She said that she was.. of course.
After I left, I began to think about what she said, and asked myself why I don't answer with a similar response when asked... I never, ever say blessed. It's always good, or fine, or great... never blessed.
I am blessed, EXTREMELY blessed.. but apparently I don't see it enough.. apparently I don't have as much gratitude as I should, or I would answer with a response such as she did...
Maybe I'm just used to lying and saying good.. I'm not always good. I have a lot of good days, and usually feel good.. but I have some days that aren't so great either. I have some days that really just suck to be honest... why don't I say it?
I guess the problem with me is a little bit of both. I have a lot of work to do on me, a lot... I need to get better at being honest in the way of letting people who really care know how I am feeling, and not feeling the need to act like everything is great all the time, because it's not. Just as importantly, I need to write myself yet another gratitude list.. right now... because I've got some serious issues inside myself if I have to sit back and really think about how I'm blessed.
I'm out.
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Don't be too hard on yourself Jason. I'm convinced that many people who ask how you are aren't really looking for anything other than "Good," "Fine" etc. Maybe it's just a question of raising your awareness that it's a perfectly appropriate response to say, "Blessed." That would have been a good one this morning because while I am blessed, I most definitely was not fine or good.
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